How I Found My Mission in Life

17 comments

1. Jeff says:

   February 21, 2011 at 5:42 pm

   Good essay, I’m in.
2. GP says:

   February 21, 2011 at 6:20 pm

   Jeff,

   Holy cow! I must be your identical twin you never knew you had–in Cleveland!
3. Fourmyle of Ceres says:

   February 21, 2011 at 6:59 pm

   One section is particularly on point, and resonates personally, to many of us:

   Jef Costello wrote:

   I’m sure other readers of Counter-Currents have had thoughts similar to mine. And I’m sure they have also had the experience I had the following day. I woke up filled with enthusiasm for my new life, but almost immediately a serious problem occurred to me. Exactly what can I do to destroy the modern world? All those ideas about disciplining myself for the cause are well and good, but what will be the direct actions that will help to destroy everything? Admittedly, the task is daunting.

   In reply, the basic archetypes from which the Soul is constructed all have a common pattern of growth and transformation in maturity. Forty, incidentally, is considered the point at which the external foundations have been defined, and the inner foundations must be enhances.

   We start as entirely self-centered sociopaths; until the age of two, all we are aware of us ourselves.

   In time, we identify with larger social structures – as a Child in a Family, as an Adult in an extended Family, and, in time, as an Elder who sees from the perspective of the larger extended Family, the Race. The Elders see Race as having a vertical component; the Race is moving in a certain direction, and while The Goal may be beyond finite definition, they are aware that there IS a Goal, that their IS a Transcendent Purpose that is greater than they are, of which they then become a joyous participant in a Work that is often a thankless, difficult Work.

   In science fiction – which has been used as a mechanism for communicating certain very advanced concepts – Larry Niven, who wrote the book, “Protector.” At a certain age, the work of Family is done, and it seems the rest of life is little more than an act of futility.

   Then, they identify with the Work – a Transcendent Purpose – and they transform themselves into the best Tools of this Purpose they can be. The moment of this Awareness is called The Quickening, which shifts your life from the mundane to the Transcendent, and is followed by The Awakening – a series of Initiation events that continue beyond this lifetime.

   “Protector” has some great sections describing a metaphysical shift in Consciousness, and is well worth reading. You will recognize the Quickening Moment if you read it carefully.

   That takes us to a most insightful comment, that I will need a bit of time to address.

   You wrote:

   I would love to be Tyler Durden and coordinate Project Mayhem.

   In reply, Grasshopper, watch “Fight Club” a perfect movie for Men, and Boys who want to become Men – and remember WHO “Tyler Durden is.

   A little background on “Fight Club.”

   The author spent a weekend doing est – what has now been called The Forum.

   SOMETHING in him just snapped, and he accepted much of what he had denied in his heart, about his spirit. Simply stated, the Darkness is THERE, and, if denied, only gains energy, and the ability to manifest in unwelcome ways. Dr. Jekyll is liked, and loved, but Mr. Hyde is RESPECTED.

   Accepting this power, and working with it, is challenging, and fulfilling, for the social order is calling out desperately for ALPHA Males, who can harness this power, this energy, and work with it.

   LOOK at the series of (small, and pretty safe) Initiation Rituals Tyler Durden made the members of “Fight Club” go through. Look at how cocky those bastards were, when they needed the power of the Dark Masculine to save the social order by transforming a decaying social order into a new social order.

   Am I suggesting you take a weekend course at The Forum?

   Can’t hurt – and I do not work for them. My best friend did this, and it opened the door to him accepting his power, and working with it responsibility. It FORCES a Clarity of Intention on you. The life you are living was Created by the guy looking back at you in the mirror. Want a different life?

   Change him, and you will attract a different level of Consciousness; in a small way, perhaps, you will enter into a somewhat different Reality.

   THAT is part and parcel of the metapolitical project we are engaged in here.

   Want to be better physically?

   Get a copy of “The Four Hour Body,” and do the parts that work for you.

   Want to be better spiritually?

   Work with Conscious Intent in fulfilling that greater purpose, that Racial Purpose, in small, daily events. Sending money to support Counter-Currents is an excellent idea. The smallest good deed is more effective than the grandest of intentions.

   Look at the power, the ability to be effective, the narrator of “Fight Club” found while “working with” Tyler Durden. Note that he was sleepwalking though life, until he met Tyler Durden.

   We are all sleepwalking through life, until we hear The Call, accept The Quickening, and move towards the Awakening, the fulfillment of a much greater purpose than we can imagine.

   Finally, there is a need to discover – rediscover – the Primal Masculine, and while The Forum is an EXCELLENT place to start – as is Parris Island, South Carolina! – as is an excellent new website for men, http://www.the-spearhead.com.

   They were inspired, in part, by the legendary radio host Tom Leykis. Tom had no illusions as to the goodness of women, and taught a rough, realistic assertiveness training college on the air.

   You wrote:

   But I’m fairly sure I’d get caught eventually and sent off to be some huge black man’s cellmate. (This is worrisome, as I am still pretty cute.) Nothing would be served by my going to jail. So what is there to do?

   In reply, I’ve given you a few ideas. Remember what Ton Leykis said<

   "I know you, I know you are parked in your car, in your driveway, and you are still listening to me because you do not want to go in the house you paid for. You do not want to go home. In our time together you are listening to the one man who knows you and says you are good, right, smart and strong. Never forget that.”

   We can not go home to the America that never really was, and what America has become is certainly NOT our Home.

   To build our new Home will require the Dark Masculine Energy – the power of assertiveness that is controlled aggressiveness, and that requires the nameless Narrator of “Fight Club” meeting Tyler Durden, in full consciousness, in broad daylight.

   “First Rule of Fight Club IS?”

   We can learn from this.

   1. Jeff says:

      February 22, 2011 at 9:14 am

      Your commentary is well written and elucidated, however I would like to ruminate on a couple of points.

      You speak of harnessing the “dark masculine,” by forming a club, or reading and adhering to an outline in a book or attending a forum. I contend that if a male has to actively choose one of those three courses in-order to harness his “dark masculine,” he will never choose and he will not be the type we need, cannon fodder at best. I harnessed the “dark masculine” long ago, not by attending a forum (even though I spent 20 years in the army), nor by joining a club (for that depends on the emergence of an charismatic leader, something we cannot chance or wait for), neither by reading and adhering to an outline in an obscure book (for that implies that the book must be so well written as to “fire” the mind). No, I did not pursue any of those actions; what I did was “internalize” every insult, every transgression upon my person and my hatred of the world we live in to fuel my ready-accessible rage. I feel we need to continue the “networking” enabled by this forum and others like it to attract like-minded people. If you have too convince someone that it is right and good for their race too survive; that their race in not culpable for all the ills of the world, than they will betray or fail you at a critical juncture. Modern society is the crucible for creating new dissidents; ours is the forum for them to join. We must continue to network; increase the exposure of “Counter-Currents,” to the masses and capitalize one-on-one encounters of those we deem of like mind. We can each be the Tyler Durdin you spoke of.

      Your next to the last sentence, the now-famous movie quote, “First Rule of Fight Club IS?” is limiting, because it implies (to me it does) an immediate immersion in illegal activities that will not survive public scrutiny. First, I believe we must pursue overt activities, such as legal, expansion and exposure of “Counter-Currents,’” and similar organizations and that means being-able to publicly discuss these forums and inherent issues, by providing a place for like-minded individuals to converge. Confrontation with the government cannot be avoided, but should be staved off as long as possible, for few powers, if any, can contend with the might of the United States. Covert organizations must be deferred until that “last desperate struggle.”

      If I have misinterpreted your comments, I apologize!

      1. Fourmyle of Ceres says:

         February 22, 2011 at 11:50 am

         In verbose reply to Jeff:

         Thank you for your useful and insightful response.

         I’d like the opportunity to clarify some issues I did not address clearly enough.

         You wrote:

         Your commentary is well written and elucidated, however I would like to ruminate on a couple of points.

         You speak of harnessing the “dark masculine,” by forming a club, or reading and adhering to an outline in a book or attending a forum. I contend that if a male has to actively choose one of those three courses in-order to harness his “dark masculine,” he will never choose and he will not be the type we need, cannon fodder at best. I harnessed the “dark masculine” long ago, not by attending a forum (even though I spent 20 years in the army), nor by joining a club (for that depends on the emergence of an charismatic leader, something we cannot chance or wait for), neither by reading and adhering to an outline in an obscure book (for that implies that the book must be so well written as to “fire” the mind). No, I did not pursue any of those actions; what I did was “internalize” every insult, every transgression upon my person and my hatred of the world we live in to fuel my ready-accessible rage.

         In reply, let me state that my means were not the only means to the end we seek, only tools that can help, to the extent that you do not become dependent upon them.

         I admire your internalizing and harnessing the anger, which is used to dissolve the cloud of uncertainty, and powers your desire to move FORWARD. Above all, the anger you experience fires the Inchoate Foundation of your Center, making it, and you stronger than the temporal persona people identify you with.

         By not choosing to be a “victim,” you have opened the door to effectiveness.

         The Patriarchy will return, as will a New Christianity that works with the best of the (Eternal) Tradition, and it will do so by the efforts of men such as yourself – “whether you know it or not” (HT: Savitri Devi).

         You wrote:

         I feel we need to continue the “networking” enabled by this forum and others like it to attract like-minded people. If you have too convince someone that it is right and good for their race too survive; that their race in not culpable for all the ills of the world, than they will betray or fail you at a critical juncture. Modern society is the crucible for creating new dissidents; ours is the forum for them to join.

         In reply, this the answer the wins First Prize, as it recognizes the important of the Metapolitical Framework that we are building.

         You will note that the self-identified White Nationalists of the past all stayed in the lines drawn for them by Others, and never went beyond those lines, much less Who was forming those lines, and to what purpose.

         We are engaged in the foundation of a true nation-building project, and that is why my touchstone is the Northwest Republic.

         Yes, bad people are doing bad things to us. Always have, always will.

         For the first time, however, in a very long time, we can choose to respond intelligently, by rejecting the false duality they offer us, and defining social problems as opportunities for clarification of social issues, and the social order.

         In time, this could lead to a New Order.

         What do you want to DO about it, and Do Better, after that?

         My Analytical Framework is the Northwest Republic, and I dream, daily, of my Posterity watching Mankind’s first starship lifting off from the outside Kalispell.

         That Dream has had incredible power to motivate me in defining myself and every decision I make throughout the day, no matter how small or trivial it may seem.

         You wrote:

         We must continue to network; increase the exposure of “Counter-Currents,” to the masses and capitalize one-on-one encounters of those we deem of like mind. We can each be the Tyler Durden you spoke of.

         In reply, remember, Tyler is simply waiting for us to accept his Promethean Gifts.

         “Each One, Teach One” by the power of your example.

         You wrote:

         Your next to the last sentence, the now-famous movie quote, “First Rule of Fight Club IS?” is limiting, because it implies (to me it does) an immediate immersion in illegal activities that will not survive public scrutiny.

         In reply, this is a critical issue, and I am glad you called it forward.

         I have never, and will never, even tacitly advocate illegal activities.

         As one friend of mine in the law enforcement community said, “We can do everything we need to do within the Constitution, and the Bill of Rights.”

         Works for him, works for me, works for all of us.

         Your point is worthy of further discussion.

         You wrote:

         First, I believe we must pursue overt activities, such as legal, expansion and exposure of “Counter-Currents,’” and similar organizations and that means being-able to publicly discuss these forums and inherent issues, by providing a place for like-minded individuals to converge.

         In reply, exactly so.

         In doing so, we develop Creative solutions to the obstacles facing the current social state of affairs, and make their stumbling blocks, our steppingstones.

         You wrote:

         Confrontation with the government cannot be avoided, but should be staved off as long as possible, for few powers, if any, can contend with the might of the United States. Covert organizations must be deferred until that “last desperate struggle.”

         If I have misinterpreted your comments, I apologize!

         In reply, there is no need for “covert organizations,” particularly when dealing with the State.

         The “covert organizations” in “Fight Club” were enthusiasts, working in common cause to strengthen each other, by allowing them to call forth and recognize the Vital Masculine which they have buried in junk food, and someone else’s Dreams.

         The last thing you ever want to do is deal with “covert organizations,” for several reasons; remember how much Wells accomplished with the Open Secret.

         One, “covert organizations” fall into two groups – those organized by the State, and those run by incompetent failures.

         Dzerhinsky was asked about one organization of political activists that seemed to operate with impunity.

         “Oh, them,” he replied. “I started it, and we control it. Don’t worry about it.”

         A word to the wise is sufficient.

         Two, “covert organizations” fall into two groups – the funded, and the unfunded. The first is established by the State, the second is organized by failures.

         Three – do you see The Pattern?

         In the words of the Alpha Male played by Alec Baldwin in “Glengarry Glen Ross,” “You get the picture?”

         What could you do in a covert organization that you could not do much more easily without such an organization? What would you need to work with failures at all?

         Do you want to be effective outside yourself, today?

         Send some money to Greg at Counter-Currents.

         He never asks, but he always appreciates.

         Counter-Currents is alone in looking to the Metapolitical Project, and building this in a positive manner, for the most positive of purposes.

         We can learn from this.

         1. Jeff says:

            February 22, 2011 at 3:01 pm

            Actually there is a history of covert operations that have been successful independent of the government, the communist revolution for one and the Ku-Klux-Klan.

            I send money to Counter-Currents Publishing every month.
         2. Fourmyle of Ceres says:

            February 24, 2011 at 4:05 pm

            In further reply to Jeff:

            If it seems like I’m beating a dead horse, it’s because I want to make damn sure the horse ig good and dead.

            I’d like to elaborate on a point.

            Above, I said:

            What could you do in a covert organization that you could not do much more easily without such an organization? What would you need to work with failures at all?

            This is of critcal importance.

            So many “covert organizations” are established routinely just to catch those who who misuses the dark power of anger to acheive their ends, and then what?

            Ask Matt Hale how little evidence it took to put him in a concrete tomb for life.

            Even the most open of organizations tends to have the iron law of oligarchy in effect, and the Few who truly rule might well seek to act in a covert manner.

            At that moment, they limit their effectiveness dramatically, particularly if this involves issue of State governance; this is all the more so when they attempt to usurp the State’s monopoly on organized violence.

            In time, in part because of the lack of hierarchical responsibility, and the lack of organizational transparency, the Klan became a parody of the hard-core nucleus that founded it. From the elite of the CSA Officer Corps, an organic aristocracy, it became the laughingstock that wore bedsheets over their corupulent frames, and pillowcases over their green teeth, and dull, vacant gaze. In time, to make the parody complete, they even worse satin sheets and pillowcases, of various ghastly colors. A veritable rainbow of ineptitude, there.

            The Judeo-Bolsheviks in Russia filled a power vacuum created by the fall of the Kerensky regime. Note that their similar attempts failed in Germany, as the Freikorps, a hard-core nucleus of the Warrior Priesthood if ever there was one, counter-balanced, and prevailed, over the Spartacists.

            There is a lesson there, and it is of great importance to us.

            This is the lesson to ne learned rom the painfully gained experience of Terrible Tom Metzger:

            “When a man proposes you do something violent, ask yourself why he didn’t do it. He’s the agent-provocatuer, and he’s setting you up. Walk away from him.”

            Dr. David Duke states the case more forthrightly:

            “When a man discusses – even discusses – doing something illegal, look at him and say, loudly, ‘I don’t know what you are talking about! Leave me alone or I am going to the police!’ Walk away from him. Then, if he continues and follows you, GO TO THE POLICE.”

            We can learn from this.
4. Robert in Arabia says:

   February 21, 2011 at 7:00 pm

   Bravo!
5. Petronius says:

   February 22, 2011 at 2:22 am

   I LOVE self-help books. Especially American ones, as a European I find this “Just go for it and do it”-attitude very refreshing. No reason to be ashamed. Read them first before reading Spengler etc.
6. Matt Parrott says:

   February 22, 2011 at 6:47 am

   Those of us who’ve tasted the thrill and fulfillment that comes with pursuing a transcendent mission can’t ever really return to the pursuit of money, attention, or respect.

   I prefer to frame it in terms of blazing a pathway to the Restoration, but sometimes, while watching basic cable, I assure myself that “It will all burn.”

   Blazing appears to the be operative word.
7. Ulf Larsen says:

   February 22, 2011 at 6:50 am

   I agree. As long as Counter-Currents only learns from the positive aspects of the French New Right (the value of culture and art) and is not corrupted by the negative parts (that is, Jew-loving and race nihilism – as you say, ivory tower nonsense), it will be one of the best things that have happened to White Nationalism, and thus White people generally, post WW II. I also support this project enthusiastically.
8. Lucius says:

   February 22, 2011 at 8:51 am

   Yours is not at all a unique experience, Jef. It is rather a common symptom of modern life: we lose our purpose in life, which really is to have families, produce children, be thankful to some deity or other, and to take care of the earth (our home), when we become the drones of modern society. Hence all the sexing, drinking and drugging our people do to “escape” the meaningless void that their own lives have become. Everyone at my work save about three of us are alcoholics. Technology, while it’s great in many respects, takes away jobs and creativity. Instead of engaging in networking and activities in person, everyone plays with gadgets. Germany is the worst white nation of all in this respect. They’ve lost everything but their gizmo culture. It’s awful.

   Anyway, this feeling that one has a problem is usually the symptom of societal problems. Americans are all on medications and reading self-help books not because they’re diseased, but because their society is diseased.

   Lucius
9. Cary says:

   February 22, 2011 at 10:36 am

   A good guide to overturning the present social/political order is to ask the question whenever opportunities for action come along, “Is this good for the diverse white American peoples?” and follow through.

   Would enjoy reading about your successes and failures in another posting in May.
10. realVercingetorix says:

    February 22, 2011 at 5:41 pm

    I couldn’t stop reading…
11. Roger says:

    February 23, 2011 at 6:42 pm

    That piece really put a smile on my face. Please follow through on your conviction to write more. Your focus on self-doubt and anger is pretty great. We all try to be so well reasoned, logical and fair around here. Having somebody scream into the night over his great loathing for modernity is pretty damn refreshing.

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