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A friend recently sent me an excellent video in which Jared Taylor discussed the connection between white guilt and Rapid Onset Gender Dysphoria (ROGD). As a young woman who spent several years identifying as a member of the LGBT community, I would like to thank Mr. Taylor for pointing this out and share my experiences.
For those who are interested, the video is available here.
As a child, I was somewhat tomboyish but I did not have negative feelings towards my biological sex. I remember my relatives describing me with feminine adjectives such as cute and enjoying the attention. I had a roughly equal number of female and male friends. Later, in middle school, I became fascinated with military history and model tanks and planes (I probably made someone at Tamiya a small fortune). I didn’t feel that either sex was better than the other and was surprised that some children only had same sex friends.
I went to a private middle school and was a well-adjusted and happy student who almost always received As in my classes. At 14 years old, I became a freshman at a public high school.
The experience was jarring. I found myself in an environment that was a major cultural downgrade from my private school. The student body was mostly white but there were enough blacks and Hispanics to cause drama. They were impulsive, loud, and prone to aggressive sexual behavior. The white kids were generally more respectful, but many were influenced by black norms. I distinctively remember the day that I noticed a huge portion of white GenZ slang (yeet, no cap, bruh, etc.) originated among blacks. I didn’t focus much on race, but I was aware that it mattered.
I started hanging out with a social circle which included several girls, all of them white, who met the criteria for ROGD. The most common self-description was non-binary + a condition such as ADHD or Autism. Many would switch back and forth between various identities. During this time, my tendency towards tomboyishness grew into genuine anxiety over having a female body. I assumed this was due to the fact I was developing and filling out. I described myself as “gender dysphoric.” I often wore a binder (to compress my breasts) and cut my hair into a short style. I looked quite a bit like this Pinterest model, although I didn’t get ear gauges:
I’ve thought a lot about what caused a solid majority of my friend group to dissociate from biological reality. I think that, for many of us, a strong sense of white guilt was involved.
My former best friend – we were inseparable for three years – was a perfect example of this trend. When we were younger, she told me that she felt sick to her stomach whenever she thought about the “terrible things” happening to non-whites due to systemic racism. She was eager to please our teachers and fully adopted the narrative that blacks and Hispanics were held back by an invisible web of oppression. She even worried about whether she had developed internalized racism and once told me that she felt guilty about some of the thoughts she had about black students. Most of the things she felt guilty for thinking would be considered mild race-realism by readers of this website.
I believe she felt an especially strong sense of guilt because she saw her family as “problematic” when viewed through the lens of modern Leftist ideology. She came from a successful upper-middle class Anglo-American home with deep roots in the country. Her grandfather had been the managing partner of a law firm and was wealthy. Her father was also successful – and rather conservative. He used polite and respectful language, but his views on race were the opposite of what our teachers told us to believe. Her trans identity seemed to be a way to escape from this “privileged” background and become a socially acceptable minority.
Over several years she slowly changed from an intelligent and empathic young woman into a militantly anti-White provocateur. She currently lives with an emotionally unstable mixed-race boyfriend and barely speaks with her parents or siblings.
Several other friends had similar obsessions with the concept of systemic racism. White guilt was disproportionately common among my trans identifying friends. However, it was not the only cause of dysphoric feelings.
My negativity towards my biological sex had less to do with race and more to do with a sense of social alienation. I struggled to relate to the culture that surrounded me. I think many older folks underestimate how poorly disciplined and hypersexual a modern school can be. Some boys, including white ones, would say extremely crass things in front of young women. There were girls who had no problem with this and were happy to make social media posts that seemed downright degrading. A middle-class white girl, the senior dance team captain, made a viral TikTok of herself doing an extremely sexual dance to Lil Wayne’s song She Will.
The idea that being a girl meant sexualizing oneself in a provocative way on the internet and having dramatic relationships seemed… demoralizing. I couldn’t feel excited about the lifestyle of the popular girls I played sports with. I didn’t want to spend time on social media posting bikini pics, I didn’t have the same hobbies, and I couldn’t understand why so many girls were attracted to losers. The “sexy bad boy” thing was incredibly confusing. I watched as many girls put themselves into bad situations by dating young men with obvious red flags. No one seemed willing to admit this was happening or criticize this behavior. I think that part of why so many “redpill types” are angry is that they see the same pattern and don’t like being blamed for the bad behavior of a minority of men.
I was also bullied as a freshman by several popular girls even though I never did anything to harm them. I was polite, respectful, and stayed out of their way – and they’d still make rude comments. When I started dressing like a boy, these “mean girls” suddenly left me alone. Teachers were more protective of dysphoric students and less tolerant of bullying.
Not all ROGD girls have the same issues. Some are motivated by white guilt, some feel alienated by modern culture, a disproportionate number have overbearing mothers, and some have unusual sexual fetishes. Ray Blanchard has written about the latter phenomenon, which he termed autohomoerotic gender dysphoria. Having known several of them, they are often just as narcissistic as male autogynephiles. Most of us who weren’t “yaoi” addicts avoided them.
Nearly all of us started off as well-behaved girls with above average grades. Most fell into this at young ages – 12 to 15 – and were operating through the mental prism of nerdy, depressed children. I’ve seen Eastern Europeans argue that this is “just a Western thing” and that their own people are genetically immune to it, which is not true. I have known plenty of ethnically Slavic ROGD girls living in Western nations. The issue is cultural. It is a social contagion and maladaptive coping mechanism.
A few of my former friends managed to grow out of their ROGD phase and are now in happy relationships, others spiraled and are likely too far gone to recover.
In my case, what helped me was:
- Talking about my feelings with my grandmother.
- Making new friends through work.
- Being honest about which aspects of my body made me feel awkward (I’m thin, “delicate”, and big-chested – all of which influences how people interact with me and, frankly, can lead people to make assumptions about me that I don’t like. I also feel anxiety about my physical safety in certain situations).
- My spiritual beliefs (I have always found the Dharmic concept of fulfilling one’s incarnate purpose quite motivating).
- Getting into a healthy heterosexual relationship.
The last step did the most to realign my worldview and improve my self-image; but it was not something I planned for.
I was working at a Barnes and Noble café (I can’t describe how many times I said “we serve Starbucks drinks but we are not a Starbucks store” – although that’s off topic) and a very handsome young white man came in and tried to talk to me. I had abandoned my “pronoun phase” but was still dressing androgynously and had short hair. I was surprised that he seemed interested in me. He then came back a week later. And the week after that. I acted nonchalant and did my best to conceal my actual feelings – I even complained a couple times to my grandma about “the guy who keeps coming back.” The truth is I was worried he’d lose interest once he realized how weird I was.
Eventually he asked me out and we started dating. Once I was in a healthy romantic relationship a lot of the brainwashing fell away. I remember feeling surprised at how much better my life was. The narrative that heterosexual partnerships are inherently unequal seemed irrelevant and detached from reality. It was far easier being the woman in a heterosexual relationship than role-playing as a non-binary person.
I still sometimes feel a bit odd about my body and have a few theories as to why, even as a small child, I was tomboyish – but the strong negative feelings have completely faded away. I consider myself very fortunate to have not gone on hormones and to have not gotten a mastectomy.
I’m glad I was able to snap out of it and realize that being a woman is not a bad thing.
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Are you saying that the young woman pictured above is white? I don’t know about that. 🙃
(Sigh) Peter why do you wish to start a fight with a young woman who says she’s White? For our greater edification, she mentions she’s sharing pics of a gal who resembled her (when she was in her tomboy stage.)
I remember a few similar looking girls in my all-girl 99% White Virginia boarding school in 9th & 10th grades during the late 80s. I too was playing on athletic teams & sported short pixie hair at one point. None of us really wore make up; but I remember some gals that colored their blonde hair brown & had blue eyes, yet wore (brown?!) custom-colored contact lenses. And some carcinoma gals would sunbathe to tan their skin.
Black/rap music was not popular there, At All, *however* “looking different” was…
So, when surrounded by almost all fair-skinned, mostly blonde & redhead , & light-eyed girls, ironically this was what was done simply to be different. (Back then, we all wore the same required school uniform clothing, and numerous piercings & tats weren’t a thing.)
I remember one 15yo who had brown hair & light brown eyes who colored her bangs (only) blonde, asked if I wanted to color my hair green for St. Patrick’s Day. I said as a natural redhead, I didn’t think it would make me look any more Celtic or “festive.”
You’re right! I apologize to the girl in the pictures, and you. 🥹
You must be joking. If not, then you’re insane.
Mr. Q, having a tendency to see Jews behind every tree, seems to have also seen one coming for him from the photo.
I see jews behind every tree, because, guess what, there are jews behind every tree! 🙃
I may be insane, but at least I am not you! 🙃
Hi,
I was just using the picture to explain my sense of style during that part of my lifepath (Kim’s explanation is perfect).
Liked the essay very much. I don’t recall seeing your articles before, if you’re a new member to the CC writing team or just contributing periodically, but welcome aboard. It’s gratifying to see younger White people break away from the cruel programming into more fulfilling lives, much to the displeasure of our birdless-beaked globalist enemies.
She is and you seem to have a low visuospatial IQ. Mental capacities drop severely with age…
I already apologized to Kim, and the author, you are fair game—yo mamma! As to the old age thing—you would know! 🙃
She is white and quite beautiful. Don’t know if that’s the actual author
My takeaway here is that all of the problems mentioned (race, social alienation, hypersexualization, social media habits etc) are highly interrelated so neither can be understood without the others.
This is the truth.
Too bad the medical community doesn’t see that gender dysphoria is part of a spectrum of problems.
The ones who are uncorrupted and retain a shred of conscience and medical ethnics do. Who knows how many, though? Certainly not the sleaze in the WHO or walsh’s What is a Woman? documentary.
I think there’s a lot of truth to that.
Many trans identifying individuals assume that issues they have with society are downstream from their dysphoria (if I was X, then I wouldn’t care about Y). In reality, these issues are parallel and interrelated.
Thank you for sharing your story. I hope you and your current boyfriend go on to have a big happy family. Unfortunately Mr. Taylor’s video wouldn’t play.
Thank you, here is a link to the video that I saw:
https://www.bitchute.com/video/lBVB93W4S7Fb/
He had a longer discussion on AmRen about this too.
The solution is to attend a smaller, conservative school in a small white town or in the countryside. And to have some interesting friends outside of school, such as artists, musicians, visual artists, writers, and interesting people outside of the toxic Jewish mainstream. And maintain good relationships with your family and have a good heterosexual white relationship. People who have a strong will and a good direction will survive anything.
I cannot relate to the gender dysphoria, but going to the right school is important. In freshman year I went to the closest high school which was highly diverse. I got 4.0 grades, but hated the students and my bike got vandalized. I moved to a school further away that was almost all white and the next three years were excellent. My grades dropped to 3.6, which is where they should have been, and I witnessed no more fights on campus.
“The experience was jarring. I found myself in an environment that was a major cultural downgrade from my private school.”
I had a similar experience. I had gone to private grade school, but my parents couldn’t afford private high school. In the very first class of my very first day at public high school – and it was one of the better ones with a two-year waiting list – “students” were using drugs in the back of the classroom and one girl was offering to trade sex for drugs. The teacher noticed it but said nothing. I, however, was aghast, having come from a small, private Christian school.
Sorry that you also had a bad experience transitioning to a public high school.
I’m convinced that many of my teachers were afraid to correct (blatant) bad behavior because they didn’t want to get in trouble with irate parents. It was easier for them to ignore problems than to risk a parent spinning things around and pinning the blame on the teacher.
Unfortunately I can’t find the original article, but the point, to me, is that children often lack good judgement – they’re children!
I completely agree with this. Many of the those who are coming out as “trans” and “non-binary are doing so at very young ages & their minds aren’t fully developed. They have no idea what they’re signing up for and, in many cases, they end up “stuck” in a toxic subculture.
…her father, who had been silent about the matter, stepped in and put his foot down, saying “No. You look just as a young woman should.” Although she was initially angry at being denied, she was also glad to have been validated by her father, and her anxiety dissipated.
I don’t think it’s a coincidence that many of my friends had families in which the father was passive and the mother was a little “overbearing” (and often very liberal). Not all of them were like that, my best friend had a very masculine father and a conservative family, but it was a common pattern.
I recall reading an article by some woman, describing how she was anxious about her body during puberty, especially her growing breasts, and wanted a breast reduction. Her mother was going along with her repeated complaints, and when her mother finally agreed, her father, who had been silent about the matter, stepped in and put his foot down, saying “No. You look just as a young woman should.” Although she was initially angry at being denied, she was also glad to have been validated by her father, and her anxiety dissipated.
Unfortunately I can’t find the original article, but the point, to me, is that children often lack good judgement – they’re children! – and mothers often fail to reject their children’s poor judgement, as parenting advice these days is all about letting children be free to discover their own life path and do what they want without direct criticism or punishment. But that is bunk. Children need a parent who will set them straight, and give them the necessary guidance and correction to keep their lives on a healthy path.
I will also echo Fred C. Dobbs in saying that you should get married and start a family. Don’t wait until your 30s, or even your late 20s. If he’s a decent man, insist on getting married and having children while you’re still young and fertile. (And if he’s not husband material, then don’t waste your precious time.)
Finally, thanks for the article. It’s always nice to see new voices at Counter-Currents.
Thank you for sharing your story. You are amongst your people. Your recovery of a strong and healthy spirit, mind and body is a cause of great celebration and joy to all of us. God bless you and your boyfriend. Welcome home.
Thank you, that is very kind of you!
Lovely comment to a lovely story (even if it’s one I cannot relate to at all: no one back in my teen day – the 1970s – had these ‘issues’, or if they did, they certainly kept quiet about them!).
Also, can anyone translate this?
Ray Blanchard has written about the latter phenomenon, which he termed autohomoerotic gender dysphoria. Having known several of them, they are often just as narcissistic as male autogynephiles. Most of us who weren’t “yaoi” addicts avoided them.
Re: (even if it’s one I cannot relate to at all: no one back in my teen day – the 1970s – had these ‘issues’, or if they did, they certainly kept quiet about them!).
I was born in ’70. A related, yet not as complex, body dysmorphia ideology w/ behavioral consequences was going on among some teen girls & (many gay) boys in media: anorexia.
Thinking that you’ve been born into the wrong body, has similarities to believing that you are a fat person even though your body is underweight, (i.e. looking at a full-length reflection in a mirror displaying an 80# stick person, & denying the reality of what your eyes are seeing.)
I actually discovered this about a neighbor of ours one morning in ~1978 when she revealed the news on……Good Morning America! She seemed to come from an “ideal” upper-middle class family, a few doors down from us. She always made straight As, was very artistic, witty, & good-natured. I always figured wearing lots of long-sleeve shirts & corduroy pants was just “her style.” Only her hands & face were ever visible. (In actuality, she was a human skeleton person who was convinced she was really fat.) Her siblings were typical kids though.
I too was born in 1970; seattle. (Still here, unfortunately). It was “cool” to be gay, or at least that was the way I saw it. And, being raised by women (mom, grandma) who always said they hated men because men were worthless, and having my 2nd step-dad by the time I was a junior in H.S. I had massive social anxiety, especially around women. So, I experimented a little but realized (after it being pointed out to me) that I was not at all turned on by guys. I agree that this was encouraged I guess (The Cure was the coolest). I’d say I was totally deracinated until I destroyed my career by speaking out as an SJW. <https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLbhJ0fjhWjQ-pT8IoUgaJjfSJCcl1AE_N&si=StFNDVpEzJ8yEDhg> Although, I still believe it is verbally abusive to tell youngsters they are going to hell. I also don’t understand why some people don’t seem to be able to parse the difference between that view and endorsement of “drag-time story-hour.” At least my state job was the first step in becoming aware of how much I was lied to. (The last step was getting fired from Out of the Closet thriftstore for, long story short, saying that any race of person is capable of being racist). But I have not at all been lucky in my awakening other than the awakening itself. I’m fighting a catatonic resistance to looking for work at the moment and experimenting with the rope in my closet.
I’m not very certain of your situation, but did you investigate a possible employment lawsuit? An attorney friend of mine represented another friend of mine who got fired in slightly similar circumstances (nothing political, but it was a ‘speech’ issue), and he was able to force the company into negotiations, which ended up with no admission of wrongdoing, but a nice, small-six figure out of court settlement.
Whites today need to fight at every opportunity, and stick together at all times.
Don’t do anything regrettable out of despair. Maybe reach out to a friend at this point. I am sure you can make somebody’s life better.
Thanks for the responses and I am sorry I laid that on everyone: I imagine that is a good way to get banned from commenting. I am not in immediate danger. In fact, the experimenting I referred to was intended to end it, but I couldn’t go through with it. I just have a lot of shame about being stupid enough to fall for the liberal B.S. The super serious stuff (working for the state, and my last job in Seattle at out of the closet) were probably too long ago: I left seattle to an outlying area in 2016 (the first time I voted republican). Ironically, it’s the smaller stuff that is getting to me. e.g., I don’t know what kind of work to apply for since I went to college to work with kids and, after research, I have decided that doing so is not worth it in this state, at this point in history (as a white male at least). So, I’ve been working entry level jobs. Therefore, i’ve had a string of jobs where young 20 something year-olds are my bosses and job after job they point out that I have never had to work for anything in my life because I’m a straight white male. That’s why I quit the last job. I also lost my car so I’m stuck in a small suburb without a car. Hopefully I’ve learned to not engage with the idiots so that I don’t get into any political discussions at work (which I never initiate). The last job in seattle I DID get an attorney but the EEOC said no contest (even though I had a text message from the assistant manager saying “This is why I hate white people.” It was because I told her she was racist that I got fired.)
Thank you for your comment, which, in combination with other comments, makes me yet again think that the West is going to have to pass through a long period of theocratic as well as racial nationalist authoritarianism to purge these moral and cultural toxins before we can ever get back to something resembling old-fashioned American liberty-under-law.
Young females, especially, do not collectively seem to be able to handle freedom and autonomy, but rather, need a heavy degree of male/fatherly control (as was the case for most of history). The Left was very shrewd in attacking us through our women.
“Young females, especially, do not collectively seem to be able to handle freedom and autonomy, but rather, need a heavy degree of male/fatherly control (as was the case for most of history). The Left was very shrewd in attacking us through our women.”
LordShang, in defense of females, I think we’ve simply been offered too many choices, AND we’ve also been lied to by most non-parental, influential people as well. (In high school: Did you ever consider X as a career, because you seem like such a natural quantum physicist, rocket scientist, robotics engineer, [fill-in-the-blank something masculine & of no interest to me] ?!? At weekend/summer entry-level jobs: You’re SO good at such and such tasks! Your [teaching/writing/organization] skills are SO needed here.)
Smh, just no. What we need today is involved parents in this highly messed up society. We need strong families. For women, we need to popularize practical home, childcare, food prep, & household repair skills. I am not kidding when I say, I don’t recall either of my private all-girl high schools offering home-economics classes. I would have liked to have learned some practical home skills. I remember borrowing a book from the library on how to iron clothes (where to place creases/seams, etc.) –basic stuff that all responsible mothers should teach their daughters. You don’t have to depend on a dry cleaners! You can learn to hem slacks yourself. And you don’t have to depend on your ability to hire queer males to style your hair, hang your wallpaper, create beautiful things & make tasty ‘gourmet’ food.
This stuff absolutely is being encouraged. During my schooling (1970s and 1980s) I never knew of a single boy or girl who wanted to be the opposite sex or expressed any confusion about who they are. During the entirety of my education, my first and only experience to gender-bending was a guy in college around 1990 who wore a crushed velvet miniskirt. (He’s a real shmuck, and remained so decades later, but I’ll write it off as a comorbidity.) That’s it.
By the 1990s, things hadn’t “progressed” too much further. The official uniform for members of “the Cult of Being Different” was tattoos, ugly piercings, and body modifications. The trendy sexual variation was female bisexuality. When the Internet went public, the social contagions for adolescent girls were anorexia, bulimia, and cutting. Puberty blockers and sex changes for kids were still a couple decades away.
As for translations, autogynephilia means men who get turned on by imagining themselves as women. One possibility is that it’s caused by excessive exposure to lesbian pornography. “Autohomoerotic gender dysphoria” is more difficult to parse, but seems to mean an approximately parallel phenomenon of girls wanting to be boys, though for different reasons. “Yaoi” is the gay male form of hentai (anime pornography).
Beau, the fact that you know all this stuff has me worried for you!
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/joking
😉
At least I’m making myself useful, right? It’s indeed fitting that a degenerate like me explains degeneracy 🙂
“Autohomoerotic gender dysphoria” is more difficult to parse, but seems to mean an approximately parallel phenomenon of girls wanting to be boys, though for different reasons. “Yaoi” is the gay male form of hentai (anime pornography).
I’m not trying to be nitpicky (you’ve brought up a lot of awesome points in your comments), but I was using “yaoi” in a catchall way. Many in the FTM / non-binary community use the term as slang for any form of “MM” / “Male x Male” fiction. From what I’ve seen, Western produced erotica novels are now just as common of a source of this as anime.
Ah, who could’ve predicted how influential those Kirk/Spock fan fiction stories would become!
Thanks for the info. As we seem to be somewhat near in age, you must agree that all this stuff is way outside what we experienced in our youths – yet another example, perhaps, of a “revolution eating its children”. Many scholars have compared the French and Bolshevik Revolutions. I wonder if anyone has ever done a good scholarly comparison between the Bolshevik and Sexual Revolutions?
Both revolutions, of course, need to be overturned, their apostles eliminated, their results eradicated. If our race and civ. are to survive, the era of individualism must be ended for perhaps a century or more.
Interestingly, the Bolsheviks did have a very libertine phase, going even wilder than our Sexual Revolution. So did (((Bela Kun’s))) short-lived Hungarian Socialist Republic, and of course the Weimar regime. The Bolsheviks found out the hard way that it just doesn’t work and ended this social experiment. If I wanted to get conspiratorial (as usual), then I’d say they figured out that it’s a good way to destabilize a society. They obviously don’t want to do that to a country they already control, but targeting another one is a different matter altogether.
As for what we’re going to do about it, I’m sort of at a loss. I just don’t see the genie going back in the bottle any time soon. A major religious revival could do all that, but that’s unlikely in the foreseeable future. (Besides, it seems that just about everyone around here is allergic to Christianity anyway.) The best bet is to come to some practical social understandings, for one matter that one’s 20s and 30s aren’t intended to be an extended adolescence. Sensible paternalism should be prioritized over radical personal autonomy. Also, reforming “family law” would help, such as taking away the cash and prizes. That would put a brake on YOLO divorces, and it would be safe to get married again.
Janice Fiamengo gets close maybe?: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zLgjUaNvQn4
Also, can anyone translate this?
Ray Blanchard has written about the latter phenomenon, which he termed autohomoerotic gender dysphoria. Having known several of them, they are often just as narcissistic as male autogynephiles. Most of us who weren’t “yaoi” addicts avoided them.
Hi, Lord Shang, Ray Blanchard is a sex researcher who has argued that autogynephilia – a fetish in which a biological male is aroused by the idea of having a female body – is a common trait in male to female transsexuals.
Autohomoerotic gender dysphoria is somewhat similar. It is when a biological woman wants to be a gay man. This article explains Blanchard’s view of it:
https://4thwavenow.com/tag/autohomoerotic-gender-dysphoria/
There is immense overlap between autohomoerotic dysphoria and early exposure to “yaoi” – gay male romance stories written for a female audience. This is a mild example of that type of book, sold at Barnes and Noble:
https://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/the-entanglement-of-rival-wizards-sara-raasch/1146657407?ean=9781250333247#
If you walk through the romance section at B&N or Target, you’ll see plenty of similar titles marketed to tween girls. A friend of mine (who also left the trans movement) refers to it as “fetish grooming.”
In terms of behavior, autohomoerotics tend to stand out a bit from other ROGD girls. They’re often a bit “spergy” and seem more prone to dressing in flamboyant styles. They also tend to be less focused on physical dysphoria / negative body image issues and more concerned with ideology and self-identity. For many of them, the trans movement is a way to annoy “The Man” while promoting their fetish. It’s a very different mindset. Some will even shame girls with physical dysphoria for describing their feelings and asking about non medical solutions because they don’t want the “movement” to look bad. There’s also overlap between each type and not all autohomoerotics act like that; it’s just more common for them to have that perspective.
Thank you for your response, and sharing your story. I’m glad you made it safely to the other side, your real “home” as Arminius correctly stated.
I checked out that B&N link, and am appalled. Though I’ve bought a lot of books at B&N outlets over the decades, no, I’ve never spent any time in any “Romance” section of any bookstore (when I think of “Romantics”, Byron and Keats, etc naturally come to mind). Such garbage marketed and sold to underage females should be banned as child pornography (“fetish grooming” is a good descriptor).
As I mentioned in another comment, a long period of rightwing authoritarianism is needed to put the Sexual Revolution back in its place. Coercive force will have to be liberally applied. The only other possibility is, as I state often, some type of separation. Just as we normal whites have to accept that many of our biological ‘confreres’ are simply lost to our race (they will miscegenate, or their descendants will, or they won’t reproduce at all), so, too, will moral normies have to accept that the fate of many deviants will likewise be ultimate separation from our healthy volk. Our task is mostly building our community up rather than salvaging the sick (though it’s nice when persons like you escape the indoctrination, and our community should always be open and encouraging towards those who are not yet polluted beyond redemption).
Your writing suggests intelligence. I hope we readers will hear more from you.
Thank you for your response, and sharing your story. I’m glad you made it safely to the other side, your real “home” as Arminius correctly stated.
Thank you, I feel very fortunate that I was able to reach the place I’m in now.
I checked out that B&N link, and am appalled.
The genre is being pushed hard right now. There is a series called Heartstoppers that Target and Barnes & Noble both sell. That one is even more specifically aimed at young girls (super soft colors, artwork aimed at kids, flowery packaging, etc.).
Such garbage marketed and sold to underage females should be banned as child pornography (“fetish grooming” is a good descriptor).
I could honestly go off on a mini-rant about this issue because some of these authors are aware of what they’re doing. They know that, if you show a young person who is going through a period of “sexual awakening” certain types of imagery, you can sometimes tweak their sexuality a bit. Some of them even publicly joke about doing this.
Your writing suggests intelligence. I hope we readers will hear more from you.
Thank you, if you have any questions about the trans movements or my own experiences feel free to ask.
Autohomoerotic gender dysphoria? Narcissistic male autogynephiles and “yaoi” addicts? Jesus Christ, cancer sounds more pleasant.
Thank you for sharing this story. Hardly a day passes when I don’t feel thankful that I am in my 50s and was able to grow up without the appalling pressures on today’s young people. You’ve given me (even) more hope for the future.
Your young man seems like a good guy. Congratulations and very best wishes.
A happy life for you, glad you’ve gone so far and learned so much to wind up here.
Brooke, I’m so happy for you that you discovered Jared Taylor’s video, that you’ve found your way to Counter-Currents & that you shared your story! I happen to have 3 sons, & no daughters. My oldest is GenZ, and my youngest just celebrated his 2025 high school graduation with honors today.
The most challenging child for me to raise with my husband was the one in your age range. I swear I didn’t believe I could possibly endure having another kid, even half as high-maintenance as my oldest. I eventually did have 2 more. Today, I met the gal that my oldest son said he wishes to marry.
Getting married to a decent White man is the most important decision you will ever make. If he has practical masculine skills, and is principled, and persevering, please don’t let the opportunity go to waste. It would practically be a crime to not have children with such a man of substance. Don’t worry about the “expense” of child rearing, (money comes, money goes) nor any of the lefty/commie scare porn. Training smart kids who will be able to keep things functioning in a first world nation is very important work. High character is very valued among principled, fearless White folks, & we’re here for you Brooke!
Kim, congratulations to you and to both of your sons! You and your husband must be so proud.
Perhaps your youngest should apply to Harvard now that Trump is banning them from admitting foreign students. I suggest that he add “berg” or “stein” to the end of his last name on the application. That should do the trick.
Not enough!
Ilyich Guevara Sonbergstein?
Brooke, I’m so happy for you that you discovered Jared Taylor’s video, that you’ve found your way to Counter-Currents & that you shared your story!
Thank you, Kim!
I happen to have 3 sons, & no daughters. My oldest is GenZ, and my youngest just celebrated his 2025 high school graduation with honors today.
The most challenging child for me to raise with my husband was the one in your age range. I swear I didn’t believe I could possibly endure having another kid, even half as high-maintenance as my oldest. I eventually did have 2 more. Today, I met the gal that my oldest son said he wishes to marry.
Congrats on your youngest’s graduation and meeting your oldest’s girlfriend! It sounds like your sons are making progress in life and that’s awesome.
Getting married to a decent White man is the most important decision you will ever make. If he has practical masculine skills, and is principled, and persevering, please don’t let the opportunity go to waste. It would practically be a crime to not have children with such a man of substance.
Thanks, I think I’ve found the right guy for me. I’m often impressed by how intelligent and determined he is & he’s treated me in a respectful and patient way. Obviously no one is perfect, but the two of us seem like a good fit so far.
High character is very valued among principled, fearless White folks, & we’re here for you Brooke!
Thank you, I appreciate that!
It’s my pleasure.
Congratulations on your family Kim. Our people have been forsaken, but in response there are many networks and organizations springing up to build, create and support each other. You want to live somewhere amongst your kind and creed? It is happening. You want to find older patriarchs to mentor and foster and connect with opportunity or capital? It is happening.
Your children are of perfect age to be maturing in the Age of Heroes. I hope at some point sites like CC can act as filters and connecting points for resources for our future heroes. The situation is grave, but there is no need to despair.
None of us are alone.
Well-written and interesting.
Thank you.
I have another angle to this which I believe is contributing to the overall malaise of personal identity in the West, especially with sexuality and gender…
My youngest son is Gen Z, and has experienced developmental delays, (completely genetic and biological, not the fault of anyone). Exacerbating this is the free of want society that the last three or four generations have lived through. I try to push my kid to do things that challenge him, but sometimes it’s artificial and he senses it. (i.e. I could make him help me chop wood, but it would not serve a practical purpose because my central heat and air is far more efficient). Kids are smart and perceptive, but it takes and adult self awareness to WANT to do things that might not be immediately practical but that force you to overcome weakness and build character.
…anyway, to the point. Delayed maturity that *isn’t* genetic is the result of this sort of society we live in, and my son has a great deal of angst about the chemistry changes he is feeling. He KNOWS that’s he becoming an adult male, but he isn’t comfortable with what comes with that. I see him worrying about it and clinging to childishness. I think people have always done this (even in the Christian Bible it speaks of doing away with childish things)…but it’s 1000x worse in the society we now live in.
So this pubescent period is a time of vulnerability and wanting to be IN CONTROL, rather than having the expectations of adulthood forced upon you. What better way than to seek out an identity that is edgy and non-traditional? Especially for kids who are not comfortable with who they’re becoming.
I certainly think that antiwhiteness plays a role. Just today I went to the drug store and the pharmacy tech was an overweight middle aged white woman with the short “butch” haircut. That in itself did not bother me, but she spoke with that ghetto black dialect (DEY BE doing DIS or DAT, That will be “ten dollah”, etc.
That language is the fakest thing I’ve ever heard coming out of a white person’s mouth. Too many times I’ve seen a white woman who talks this way completely stop when she’s among mixed company that isn’t OK with it. There are so many white people like this, who just can accept who they are and a want to be anything but who they were born to be.
my son has a great deal of angst about the chemistry changes he is feeling. He KNOWS that’s he becoming an adult male, but he isn’t comfortable with what comes with that.
Sorry your son is going through that. Hopefully he’s able to come to grips with things soon.
I’m also glad you brought up the issue of kids not wanting to grow up because I’ve met several trans kids who were stuck in “Peter Pan mode.”
Thank you, Brooke, for sharing these things. My wife was a tomboy when she was a girl, and she grew into a very traditional, feminine woman, and comfortable with those qualities. I’ve known other tomboys who continued being tomboyish as adult women, and had healthy, fulfilling marriages and families. And I knew one woman like that who never married, but lived a full life while having a very traditional outlook on the world.
As you understand, many of us are a complex bundle of characteristics, and that doesn’t mean that we need to fit ourselves into certain roles that our current, extremely sick culture demands of us. You can still “be yourself,” with all your complexity, and be healthy, as you’ve been finding out. I think that’s part of what makes life and people so interesting. Oddly today’s culture which insists upon individual “autonomy,” or whatever it’s called, is very hostile towards many healthy directions that people can take. As with racial “Diversity,” the Powers-that-Be attack and destroy any real, meaningful, healthy diversity.
Maybe you don’t need them, but this oldster will offer a few suggestions if you don’t mind: be patient with your relationship. If he is the right guy–great–and if not, don’t give up. Insist on someone with good character, as others here have suggested. But no one is perfect, and we all need to be forgiving of shortcomings. While I believe that any marriage requires work and commitment to be successful, I’ve found that the work and commitment is more than worth it. I’m not a perfect husband, and my wife isn’t perfect either, but that’s fine with both of us. We have complications in our personalities, and need to make adjustments because of them sometimes, but that’s just something that people have done for millennia in successful marriages.
And I remember Tamiya, and other great military modeling stuff–lots of fun memories!
As you understand, many of us are a complex bundle of characteristics, and that doesn’t mean that we need to fit ourselves into certain roles that our current, extremely sick culture demands of us. You can still “be yourself,” with all your complexity, and be healthy, as you’ve been finding out. I think that’s part of what makes life and people so interesting.
That is an excellent way to put it! A big step in my journey was realizing that I can be myself as a woman. Not everyone has to fit in a particular box.
In my case, making a friend who had similar interests to mine and who was 100% happy being female helped me to see how goofy some of my beliefs were.
Maybe you don’t need them, but this oldster will offer a few suggestions if you don’t mind: be patient with your relationship. If he is the right guy–great–and if not, don’t give up. Insist on someone with good character, as others here have suggested. But no one is perfect, and we all need to be forgiving of shortcomings. While I believe that any marriage requires work and commitment to be successful, I’ve found that the work and commitment is more than worth it. I’m not a perfect husband, and my wife isn’t perfect either, but that’s fine with both of us. We have complications in our personalities, and need to make adjustments because of them sometimes, but that’s just something that people have done for millennia in successful marriages.
Thanks, those are all important points.
My boyfriend has good character traits and I think that really matters in a partner. It surprised me, as a teen, when I’d see girls date boys who everyone knew had major psychological “red flags” / anti-social traits. Not all young women are like that & pop culture definitely encourages it; but it’s common enough that it left me feeling a bit confused. As I got older, it was easier for me to see these things in the social context they exist in.
Interesting and good article. White boys growing up are strongly taught not to be proud, strong and masculine. As the root cause of every problem that has ever existed, they have 2 main routes to go.
One is to be withdrawn and quiet and timid. The other option is to act black which is widely accepted. This means they become loud, hyper-sexualized/crude, act out, ignore their education and become losers/bad boys (the wigger option).
For many White girls this is more attractive than the quiet type as it is seen as exciting and also promoted by media and society.
Her experience at Highschool was EXACTLY my experience. Only there was no one who would hear me SCREAM and no one to SCREAM too.
Diversity is like being locked in a dark cage with animals as a 15 year old boy at the bottom of a pit …. And no one cares …. And you have to be very careful to tell the animals WHAT THEY WANT TO HEAR.
And the whole time…your feelings DO NOT MATTER. Not the the secular left. And not to the Christians from the private school I came from.
NO ONE WANTS TO HEAR IT.
This breaks my heart because I know how true it is. What I see happening, and what I hope you will consider, is folks waking up and not only hearing it, but finally talking about it. I now initiate conversations with young people that would start a riot if done at the wrong time. At my Director’s Christmas lunch a few months ago a white female coworker laughingly said “White men are overrated” and my black boss had to lean over me to high-five her in approval. I waited until my coworker came in to my office later when I shared with her that as a mother of a white son herself she should be ashamed to say such a thing. I told her I was offended (a language these dimwits understand) and she apologized. I could tell no one on the planet had ever suggested such a thing to her.
I also take time alone with young people to talk about being white and you can see they’ve never heard anyone be proud of it before. The hope that comes to their eyes is really something. At the risk of sounding corny, be for other young White men what no one was for you.
p.s. My black boss was fired a few weeks back for gross incompetence. And by the way, I shared with our board chair her high-five bullshit.
Congrats Weave, on being rid of a crappy black female boss who doesn’t know Shinola from granola! And good for you on having a word with that “mom”. I try to talk people into staying married until their kids are out the door using the same logic: Our kids didn’t ask to be here. Our kids need guidance to know how to work out problems, & how to select good mates. There is no reason an educated, first world White women should not learn how to pick a good mate. (If not, do we need our fathers to make that decision for us?!)
In the early 90s, I was assigned as ‘Team Leader” & I’d regularly call out goofy bs immediately, on the spot, so long as it was just us among our own employees present, & no clients were there. I’d even matter-of-factly do this to my own Jewish supervisor, when she would do something absurd, like reach across a conference table to remove a cherry tomato off my plate, & pop it in her mouth, because it ‘just looked so good’! So out-of-bounds. (Were you raised in a cave?)
Jewish higher ups never knew what to do, because they had never encountered an outspoken anti-liberal within a highly liberal environment. In some team-building experience, I answered, “YES, I’d hire a technically qualified “racist.” A couple people looked concerned, & so I offered explanation, & my explanation made sense to them. In an attempt to “humiliate” me, one day, one male Jew started saying vulgar things within earshot. (I blushed.) And then he made a big deal of it, pointed out to all in the room: I made Kim blush!! I responded, “Blushing is a sign of character. You don’t have it, can’t recognize it, & will never be able to purchase it.” (<– I learned that from a blue-collar customer I was waiting on at a diner when I was 16. Best ‘tip’ I ever received!!)
Sadly, I’ve seen quite a few opinion/propaganda pieces from white women who lament the existence of their white boys, feeling that they have brought evil into the world – who taught them that? – and that the only way to make amends for this is to make extra sure that their sons grow up to be feminists and anti-racists.
Also, why would a magazine even publish such a thing? Our society is sick or malevolent… or more likely both.
I really appreciate you pushing back against that stuff. It’s more effective coming from a woman. (Obviously, the word of a pale, stale male means little these days.)
The first time I saw “pale, stale & male” was on the cover of a magazine at a supermarket check-out, spoken by Meghan Markle, the racially mixed-up, divorced American feminist which Harry decided would make a great English princess.
I also take time alone with young people to talk about being white and you can see they’ve never heard anyone be proud of it before. The hope that comes to their eyes is really something. At the risk of sounding corny, be for other young White men what no one was for you.
I’m glad it’s worked out for you. Sometimes I’ve gotten through, but not nearly as much as I’d like. The usual results were either apathy, or incomprehension as if I were speaking Sumerian.
I’m sorry you also had a rough time in high school. It’s unfortunate that there isn’t more discussion, in the mainstream, about how dysfunctional some public schools are.
Brooke, thank you for writing and sharing this poignant essay. It means a lot that you would choose to submit it for publication here, at Counter Currents.
A few years ago at a conference I was chatting with an older man between talks. When I asked him how he was enjoying the speakers, he said, “I really don’t get why no one is talking about the whole transgender thing!”
Like you, he saw in it a clear racial component; white males and females, having been told that everything they are is both ugly and shameful, see in transgenderism, as you said of your friend, a way to “become a socially acceptable minority.” In other words, the only way to evade being seen as a deserving target of abuse in the modern West. No wonder so many of them go this route.
I hope you’ll continue to contribute, comment, and read here at Counter Currents.
Brooke, thank you for writing and sharing this poignant essay. It means a lot that you would choose to submit it for publication here, at Counter Currents.
Thank you, I was super happy that the editor thought the essay was a good fit for this site!
A few years ago at a conference I was chatting with an older man between talks. When I asked him how he was enjoying the speakers, he said, “I really don’t get why no one is talking about the whole transgender thing!”
Like you, he saw in it a clear racial component; white males and females, having been told that everything they are is both ugly and shameful, see in transgenderism, as you said of your friend, a way to “become a socially acceptable minority.” In other words, the only way to evade being seen as a deserving target of abuse in the modern West. No wonder so many of them go this route.
What happened to my friend was definitely a wake-up call. She was a fun, intelligent person and I watched as toxic ideas slowly wore her down and caused her to view her own race and family as problematic. I honestly think that, in addition to adopting a trans identity, her negative feelings about Whiteness were a major motivation in her decision to date her current (mulatto) boyfriend. A big part of her identity seems to be about escaping Whiteness and having a non-White boyfriend is part of that.
Hopefully more people will start to point out the connection between anti-White ideas and young White kids adopting trans identities.
I’ve seen a few detransitioned and desisted women on Reddit mention that White Guilt played a role in their gender issues. A friend also shared the essay on one of her social media pages and quickly got a positive response from a young, formerly trans identifying, woman.
I hope you’ll continue to contribute, comment, and read here at Counter Currents.
Thank you! I’m currently going through some of the older essays on the site and have found quite a few fascinating ones!
A brilliant piece. You can tell, within three or four sentences of a personal piece of writing, whether the writer knows themselves or not. You know yourself. Bravo!
Thank you for sharing this. I think coed education in high school is sort of a recipe for disaster. What with the raging hormones, it seems like it’s better to have a school for boys and a school for girls with may be a meetup every once and a while with chaperones of course. Stories like this give me hope and make me a little less misanthropic.
Thank you for this. It’s spoken to me about my own public school experience.
You seem like an awesome person.
Best wishes.
Thank you!
I want to thank the author for sharing her experience. I sometimes think women are rejecting their bodies because they cannot hide what is happening to them. So, ‘breast binding’ is one way of concealing their transition into adult womanhood and all the responsibilities and powers that go with being an adult human female. Of which a major one is motherhood.
I wonder if the author has any opinions on whether depictions of the birthing process contributes to the feeling among young women that they don’t want to be female. I remember as a young man becoming aware of the possibility of being drafted to war and the feeling that accompanied it: fear. Perhaps women go though the same thing when they realize that motherhood is something that is now in the card?
I’m not sure if childbirth factors into it, but that’s possible. I think some of them become apprehensive because of the extra attention they’re getting. Young guys their age are drenched in hormones but have no clue on how to make an approach that isn’t crude. As for the girls, they haven’t yet realized that beauty is a superpower. I’ve heard also that some of them see extreme porn, get the mistaken idea that this is what sex typically is, and therefore want nothing to do with it.
I think some of them become apprehensive because of the extra attention they’re getting.
That definitely happens sometimes.
Getting male attention that you aren’t used to + low self esteem = difficult combination (I think the mind can loop into negative feelings towards one’s body as it is the source of the unwanted attention).
Young guys their age are drenched in hormones but have no clue on how to make an approach that isn’t crude.
That’s true for some, but I think others are in need of stronger authority figures to keep them under control. Kids will push the limits (sometimes for attention / shock value) if there aren’t adults willing to set boundaries.
I’ve heard also that some of them see extreme porn, get the mistaken idea that this is what sex typically is, and therefore want nothing to do with it.
Imo, this is a bit of a complicated issue.
None of my friends assumed sex was always like extreme porn, but there’s a lot of overlap between the trans movement and modern Feminism. A lot of Feminist theories about heterosexual relationships bleed into it (“hetero relationships are inherently unequal,” “straight men will only like you for your body because of Toxic Masculinity,” etc.). A lot of us did not like how crass modern culture was and had self-esteem issues.
On a personal level I’ve always been somewhat of an idealist and romantic at heart, and wanted a relationship based off a deep element of friendship. The friend I mentioned in the article felt the same way (we talked about everything under the sun).
There are others though who are the opposite. I’ve seen some who try to copy crass, rough guys and fujoshis / yaoi fanatics tend to have other paraphilias.
In a big enough environment, there’s some self-assortment.
Ah, who could’ve predicted how influential those Kirk/Spock fan fiction stories would become!
Lol, I sort of forgot about Spork fan fiction until you brought it up. Now a lot of it is Walther White x Jessie Pinkman.
I wonder if the author has any opinions on whether depictions of the birthing process contributes to the feeling among young women that they don’t want to be female. I remember as a young man becoming aware of the possibility of being drafted to war and the feeling that accompanied it: fear. Perhaps women go though the same thing when they realize that motherhood is something that is now in the card?
My friends didn’t focus much on childbirth, but some of them had bad relationships with their mothers and I believe this may have caused a fear of motherhood itself. One of my high school friends mentioned once that she thought the idea of being a mother sounded scary because “if you mess up, your kid is hurt for life.” Her own mother was very hard on her and her dad was too beta to push back. I think she associated motherhood with negative things.
We are all glad that you found the way out, Brooke! I hope your life will be bright from now on.
Honestly, your experience sounds completely foreign to me. But I wonder how you can reach to such lost people, especially in a brief encounter?
“Instead of believing all the lies and bullshit out there cause media says so-the same media that says israel is our greatest ally-hear what our guys have to say and make your own judgements rather than live in racial denial like a severely closeted homo. Start at the proWhite Harvard, CC. Too racist and full of schnazis? Then stay on the goodgoy plantation and graze with the sheeple where you belong.” I’ve had some luck with this approach. A no-bullshit, direct, always dragging in israel whom leftists are highly critical of, and lowkey subtly shame them into exploring our ideas otherwise you’re an uncool lemming.
Hi Oleg, thank you for your kind words!
I think it might be hard to reach out to a person who is deep in the trans ideology during a brief encounter. Many people are a bit guarded when talking about these things with strangers. However, if you know someone who is open to talking to you and you already have a bit of a rapport established then it might help to mention the detrans community on Reddit:
https://www.reddit.com/r/detrans/
The trans movement tells young people that dysphoria is forever and the only solution is surgical and hormonal. Hearing from those whose dysphoria was improved through other means can help people to start questioning their assumptions.
I’ve got four sisters, so perhaps I have some perspectives here. All but the eldest is Gen. X and none of them had any serious issues like anorexia or wrist-cutting.
One used to take Prozac and had a fling burning coal while going to State U. ─ which perplexed my parents as if being taught Universalism in Church wasn’t going to get internalized somehow from one generation to the next.
Yeah, that sister was a cheer queen and drill team dancer like most of the others, and one was a Valedictorian. The one burning coal and being treated for STDs as a result once made me promise not to lynch her African Buck. He was a ballplayer at State U. who had a whole harem of White chicks, each of whom gave him their credit cards, which he proceeded to max out. WTF? He got hired as a player for the New Orleans Saints and skipped with the credit card debt, so problem solved.
I simply told her that it was her own life to ruin and that one would think that our loved ones “would have more sense than that.”
None of my sisters were Tomboys, but I think that concept is a bit overwrought anyway ─ at least in my perusal of periodical and academic literature about and for women.
There is nothing wrong with being a Tomboy. My late Grandmother could easily fit into that category. She might resemble Laura Ingalls Wilder better than “X actress known for her sexy androgynous look,” however. My Grandmother had the nickname “Annie Oakley” in mining and ranching camps when courting my Grandfather, who was later employed as a government trapper in Colorado, because she could drop a big bear using a .22 caliber revolver with just one shot.
She raised three boys, one of whom was my Dad, and when she became an empty-nester, she got a Bachelor’s degree in Art and Spanish and became a teacher. My Grandmother just did not understand the LGBTQ thing at all.
I used to supervise college students a few decades ago, and some were amazing people and others just, “searching for answers,” as they sometimes say about mildly-trangressive young people in education.
And what I really didn’t understand was the emergence of this so-called “Modern Primitives” fetish. What this has to do with is the emulation of all kinds of real and contrived primitive taboos, ritual scarification, brandings, piercings, and whatever body modifications, etc. I was told I am just too judgemental and not hip enough for tattoo “art.” Yeah, I guess not. If it were up to me I would cease licensing tattoo parlors and put such “artists” into concentration camps and teach them how to work.
Anyway, I am not super keen on reading fiction, but I read quite a lot of both fiction and non-fiction while growing up. For example, I read all of the Frank Dixon Hardy Boys mysteries series.
And this surprises some people, but I also read all of the Carolyn Keene Nancy Drew mysteries series. I found them both to be interesting and wholesome material for inquistive young people.
Nowadays all media marketed for girls and women has to be about GRRRL Power and “fighting the patriarchy.” So basically Modern Practical Marxism.
Occasionally there would be a story about a noble savage or a numinous native in those old children’s novels, but I can’t think of any Negroes in them, or at least I never noticed. I did not read Little House on the Prairie but my sisters and cousins certainly did. Nowadays it would all be too painfully White for impressionable children, LOL.
If anything, I might have actually preferred the Nancy Drew mysteries because the Hardy Boys always roused some jealosly in me because they always got to do so many cool things that were just not in my league or that of any of my friends. I mean, they were 17 year-olds with private plane licenses jetting around and solving mysteries, LOL.
I don’t agree about the necessity of same-sex schooling, but I am not at all a fan of the public school system.
I was a Boy Scout and there were a lot of Girl Scouts and Brownies in those days prior to High School, but Girl Scouts then fell out of favor for some reason. The LDS church aggressively sponsored the Boy Scouts until the parent scouting organization became inclusive of Gays, but for some reason the Church was not interested in the Girl Scouts.
I was also a cadet in the co-ed Civil Air Patrol. That was not the horror that some people might think it was. It was actually a good way to socialize with a lot of quality individuals and their families in a “chaperoned” setting. That setting interested me far more than church fellowship. Maybe the latter was just too close to the “Kibbutz” and there was a bit of the Westermarck Effect going on.
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Totally agree about the tattoo parlors as someone who regrets all my shit tattoos when younger. That includes even the minority of tattooists who are supremely talented in hyperrealism-if you like art, commission a painting and put it on the walls. The tattoo removal industry I predict will become the next big thing once its methods are quickened, cheapened, and more effective at removing it permanently inside of leaving pale shadows on skin. That includes even the smallest ones a girl might insist on for her wrist. No. They stain your skin. Ditto on The Hardy Boys novels I remember reading when my older millennial self was a kid. Hell, I’ll even give credit to the jew r.l. stine for years of entertainment with the Goosebumps series.
Hi, interesting points and stories!
None of my sisters were Tomboys, but I think that concept is a bit overwrought anyway ─ at least in my perusal of periodical and academic literature about and for women.
I think the word is overused, but it has some relevance for explaining the explosion in FTMs and non-binaries. There are memes about tomboys being indoctrinated into identifying as non-binary because it’s a common pattern.
I personally noticed that some of my friends had similar backgrounds to mine (in terms of having been a little tomboyish as kids) and others had been very stereotypically feminine. There were also girls who would retcon their own history to make it seem like they had always been “that way.”
“I dabbled in dabbling.” t. Dabbler
I’ve shared this with several of my normie family members and a few friends. All of whom responded at how insightful and well written it is. Excellent and very important article. I only have boys so I’m not familiar with what it takes to raise a daughter in today’s world. But this is eye opening and poignant. Another example of why I keep coming back to CC.
Thank you! I’m glad to hear they enjoyed it and that it resonated.
An absolutely beautifully written article, start to finish. The author, Brooke, has my sincere admiration for the grace, poise and eloquence with which she expresses herself and for her courage in enduring a heart-breaking, inner struggle for identity.
Although it is not too surprising, given the culture we are living in, it’s still a bit of a shock to grapple with exactly how fully poisonous and horrific the educational system has become for young men and women – for our boys, and especially, for our girls.
My own experience was that of attending an all-White, rural elementary school and then being moved into a factory city’s public school system in the fourth grade. The public school system I entered had just been integrated a decade earlier. The “Equality” propaganda was noticeably heavy-handed, even to a fourth-grade schoolgirl, like myself. It was especially jarring given that the very noticeable physical presence of Blacks reinforced — constantly — the massive differences between the two races; in their behavior, their crude-sounding speech; their ways of interacting with each other; their profound difficulty with the most basic schoolwork, and their blatant hostility towards White students. Black culture had not yet become the dominant culture, so that was one positive.
Blacks still were mostly segregated as far as housing – we actually still had a Black part of town in that mid-sized city back then. (That safety barrier has now been completely eradicated!) At school, the races had little social interaction; unless you count groups of Blacks ganging up on a White “jock” (athlete) in the hallways during school, or on the school grounds after school. Black girls did the same to the most popular White girls. As a complete nonentity, I was pretty much ignored.
I would like to reach much more by this important writer. She clearly has a very valuable perspective to share.
An absolutely beautifully written article, start to finish. The author, Brooke, has my sincere admiration for the grace, poise and eloquence with which she expresses herself and for her courage in enduring a heart-breaking, inner struggle for identity.
Thank you, I deeply appreciate that. I had been thinking about writing an article like this for awhile & it felt amazingly cathartic to finally do so.
Although it is not too surprising, given the culture we are living in, it’s still a bit of a shock to grapple with exactly how fully poisonous and horrific the educational system has become for young men and women – for our boys, and especially, for our girls.
Part of me wishes that I’d included a section on the tactics the trans lobby uses to influence the school system.
There’s an incredibly powerful network that propagandizes students by feeding talking points to them through social media, pop culture, GSA Clubs (gender and sexuality alliance), etc. School staff are then told, by activists, to validate students. The activists are well organized and connected to Democrat Party elites and billionaires. Biden had a “White House Gender Policy Council” and there is a web of pro-trans elites, such as the Pritzkers, who fund trans lobbying groups. These groups create false statistics and narratives.
My own experience was that of attending an all-White, rural elementary school and then being moved into a factory city’s public school system in the fourth grade. The public school system I entered had just been integrated a decade earlier. The “Equality” propaganda was noticeably heavy-handed, even to a fourth-grade schoolgirl, like myself. It was especially jarring given that the very noticeable physical presence of Blacks reinforced — constantly — the massive differences between the two races; in their behavior, their crude-sounding speech; their ways of interacting with each other; their profound difficulty with the most basic schoolwork, and their blatant hostility towards White students. Black culture had not yet become the dominant culture, so that was one positive.
That sounds like a difficult change.
Being lied to, when your eyes can see the obvious truth, definitely can create a sense of cognitive dissonance. I remember noticing that Black kids were clearly different from us but I also felt like it was sort of farcical to claim that everyone who recognized that was motivated by hate. The hyperbolic language always struck me as a bit odd.
I would like to reach much more by this important writer. She clearly has a very valuable perspective to share.
Thank you! If you have any questions about my experiences, or what I noticed about the trans movement, please feel free to ask & I’ll answer as best I can.
Comment correction:
“I would like to reach much more by this important writer.”
^^My apologies for the error: that should have been “read much more”, not “reach much more”.
Still, the girl in the picture has a dark aspect to her appearance. I take my apology back, I think she has something of the Sephardic jew about her. 🙃
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